Like waves and the sea.

I love my mum and dad, papa and mummy. I love the way they've brought me up. Love the kind of Godly person they are, an example,  a role model and a friend.

Sometimes i feel like how easy is life for me now. i dont have to suffer and work hard for the money that i use to eat or to buy small items. As i grow older , i realized that the things that we like tend to also increase. Human nature. Then it comes to a point ; where you really have to distinguish between a need or want. Is the item what u need? or what u feel like having for fun?
Somtimes i get carried away and have some silly wishes of having something that i want. some things that arent really necessary. So i talk to mum and dad and they reason with me. And many times the feelings disappear. The thought of them working so hard to earn the money just strikes me; money Does Not grow on trees unless you are really born with a golden spoon. I can write a whole book on how hard they've worked to be where we are today. but not today. BUT if you have the extra and you need to spoil yourself, by all means go ahead :)

Righteousness . Our God is a righteous one. take heart and not be afraid!! be faithful and He will honour you.

Amos Ignatius Susau

Guard your heart.

Ok first of all, the reason why i write this blog is not to slander or bad mouth anyone . It's a bout things that happened to me; they way i think and also the way i should have reacted. Just a channel for venting out things within me but to encourage others and also to hopefully have a lesson to gain for you.

Lets begin, this week was particularly a very very defining week for me. I can tell you that the word of God is so real. You just gotta quiet down your heart and concentrate and you will find God in the Secret!! Not going to elaborate on anything but this are things which God spoke to me about.

1) The library Elim Church is Funding.

2) Preserverance.

3) Faith.

4) Love.

5) WISDOM.

Reading the book of Ecclesiastes now and wow am i blown away by so many new things to ponder about. King David at his weakest point in live still kept it strong even though he was really struggling. Through his struggles he actually still praised God and in doing so, he actually managed to see both sides of life . The good and the bad. 

Ecc 7:12-25

Was in a church seminar and something one of the speakers spoke struck me. If you are God's Children , then you have to be set apart and be Holy for God; Not too Righteous because even David say in Ecc that an over righteous man destroys himself. Temptations are everywhere and it all comes down to you, yourself and God. If you ever fall away, come back to the path.

Was watching presence conference from my iphone and it was amazing . Someday ,somehow i wish i would be equipped with all the tools and knowledge to be able to step out in front of thousands and probably millions to make a stand for what is true , right and righteous. Let it be in the Church or the Country.

Another note, is be wise in selecting who you hang out with. I just heard about this a few days ago. If you bring a prince into a prison, He will transform the prison into a palace. If u bring a prisoner into a palace, he will eventually turn the palace into a prison. Well, not exactly true but i think you know what i mean. So who you hang out with determines your character in certain ways.

Thats all i have for this time, Gotta try to study now ;)

exam in 2 days time !! haha..

Before i leave, think about the numbers that God spoke about in the bible, 1/10th.

not only tithes, even the 10 lepers. ;)

See you soon,

Amos Ignatius Susau

Needles and camel backs..

You punch someone in the face out of anger, then you come up to him and say lets be best friends?
i am fine with it but what happens when my best friends or real friends find out about what you did? good luck to you man..

some things aren't meant t be forced. 1 + 1 = 2, no matter what u do it wont be 11 or 3. Unless you decide to be funny or maybe you are just weird? hahaha!! funny to think about it..

missing home and the bunch !! cant wait to see you all!! Amen

Amos Ignatius Susau

Waves are destructive.

Lost for words with all to say 
Lord you take my breath away
Still my soul, my soul cries out
For you are holy

And as I look upon your name
Circumstances fade away
Now your glory steals my heart

You are holy
You are holy Lord

Evermore my heart, my heart will say
Above all, I live for your glory
Even if my world falls I will say
Above all, I live for your glory

With all my heart I'll say
I'm living for your name
With all to give you praise
We're living for your glory Lord 

© 2004 Hillsong Music Australia








Being old and growing old was never a choice. It just comes part and parcel with this thing called life. I was sitting in lecture today about the social implications of aging and there is a trend to see the busy world neglecting the older generation. As i was sitting there, my parents came into my mind. With all due respect, my mum and dad are my inspiration and the only 2 people who i will die for, apart from my 2 sisters of course =p
I think all youngsters and working adults or (whoever that have any parent that are still able and well) should start spending time with them as the quality of life will only grow less and less. And when the time is short for them, you don't wanna be spending time with them when they can't walk or can't talk, or maybe can't breathe even. Love them for who they are.




Was particularly agitated this week and a bit down. Hardly had a good time with people i am close with. Did some silly things and i regret it. i hope things will be better . i know what guilt and mistakes can do, sometimes irreversible. Stop the Wave that will crush your situation. a wave is still salvageable but too long a wave that has traverse will become a tsunami. STOP IT!!



#31st August - I am going back for Jin Chong's wedding and laverne chee's!!! wow.. i am soooo happy.. probably the best news i've had for quite sometime..I have been hoping to be able to go back to see the 2 people who have influenced me over the last 3 years when i was in KL. I know i have had some misunderstandings in the past with them both but i really want to put it all behind me. I wish i could have turned back time but whatever done is done and i just hope that we will still be close friends. i will forever have my utmost respect to this couple and i one day wish that i would be able to get married to a woman who is Godly in her ways and who is a woman after God's heart. Can't wait. Gonna do a bit of wedding gift hunting. still searching for something that is of worth ;) i love you BOTH as my leader and friend!! i hope you know that!!




To another topic, sometimes we want to marry the best girl or guy in the world, but why wish he or she were the best if the core of it all has always been you? why don't you be the best in your role as a gf/bf ? be the best in preserving purity? be the first to initiate a conversation? be the last to argue? the list goes on and on..




It has always been about US, not just you or me.

God i Love you. Bless my going in and going out. Bless the people around me and may they in turn bless the people around them. 




Yours truly,
Amos Ignatius Susau 

Take Heart.

Your love never fails, Never Gives up,
It NEVER runs out on me.


Thank you God. A wonderful promise indeed.


Life as we know it has its ups and downs. The ups, you feel like the king of the world, the downs, you feel like the king of fools.

Have been back in the music ministry again , drums. Oh how i missed jamming in the band and making a connection with one another that only musicians know. Was praying about whether i should buy a drum kit or not and then i randomly went to trademe.co.nz and searched for drum kits. It didn't matter to me if it was a good or bad drum-kit(brand-wise) , as long it served the purpose for me to practice and improve i would be happy. So i just scrolled down and then the word Otago appeared and i saw that the bid was closing in less than hour. so i randomly place a bid, it was NZ$ 205.00 then. I knew that no way a drum-kit would cost that cheap, i mean it was a lousy brand but good condition and that cheap? Surely it would increase. Then i rushed off to music team meeting. It was a good session and Pastor Andrew spoke on Worship. I guess every musician should learn how to improve themselves cause you want to be the best when you come into the presence of God. I forgot about my Drum set. haha!!
So after everything ended i checked my phone, i remembered i actually placed a bid. Then i saw a message fro the seller. He pulled it off the bid. Sad, then i went through my inbox, i saw a message. It was From the Seller. Guess what, he said the price was too low, and so he asked for a higher price, and boy was i happy as it was still within my budget. He came over with drum kits the next night and boy am i glad now!! God is good. Small things matters the most. It's good to be back in the music environment again!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ot6JKzTSby0


Just need to buck up in certain areas of my life. Can't live a mundane life. God is faithful and He was and is still King of  fools. So whenever you feel like a fool, remember, God is still your king and be faithful!!

Can't wait for easter breaks. Going to head down to sydney to be with my elder sister and Szeyin.

See you around!!
Amos Ignatius Susau

2 weeks..

I Gave but it hurts..

Love...Man

By Jason Mae..

The 5 Pillars of Manhood…

1. Lead - A man must be a leader in a relationship, in a marriage, in a family. There are no excuses. A woman doesn’t want to make the decisions for her man, she wants her man to lead in the relationship. A man must take initiative. A man of God is leader, not a follower, a servant, not a slave, a hero not a coward. A man of God knows God and therefore knows himself. He should be the leader spiritually first, emotionally, mentally and physically he should set the standard for others to follow.

2. Protect - A real man of God will protect his partner. That means he is willing to lay down his very own life, needs and wants for the protection of the one he loves. Every decision he makes when it comes to a relationship has her protection in mind. A woman needs to feel secure, that she is protected and safe with her man. She doesn’t need to second guess, wonder if she will be okay, or have her heart and mind played with. A real man of God will not only protect his woman physically, but also mentally, emotionally and spiritually. He always has the highest good in his mind for her safety, well being and wholeness. This is for the Christian guys out there, don’t emotionally rape a sister, play with her heart and tell her you are just her brother or friend. That is BS. Man up. You either pursue a woman of God because she is God’s precious creation, or you don’t try touching it at all, or play with their hearts emotionally, unless you are willing to be up front and clear with your intentions and the direction of the relationship from the start. Emotional rape is as painful to a woman as physical rape. Women are emotional beings and their hearts are not to be played with. Protect your sisters heart.

3. Provide – A real man of God will do whatever it takes to provide for his significant other. That means monetarily in finances, in basic needs and as well as what she desires. When a man asks a father for his daughter in marriage, the father will not ask, “How are you doing spiritually first?” No, the first thing the father will ask is, “How will you provide for my daughter?” Because part of being and becoming a man is providing for others, especially your wife and children. If a man can’t provide, he isn’t a man. God gave us hands and we must put our hands to work, no excuses to be lazy, God made us to rule the earth. Women are not be treated as toys, trophies or a luxury item, women are God’s highest creation, the very image of God.

I tell men all the time, “Treat your woman like a queen and you will live like a king.” Don’t be cheap brothers, you need to go all out when it comes to pursuing a woman. This is not a one time thing, but a continual practice. Women were created for beauty. They were created beautiful, to feel beautiful to be treated beautiful. You don’t handle a rose without care, it is the same with a woman of God, you treat her with the utmost care, honor and respect. Practically, that means you don’t take a woman to Denny’s on a first date, you take her to a place that hurts your wallet, but it’s worth it because she is worthy.

Also, men must also provide for women emotionally. When a women asks you, “How are you doing?” She is really asking, “How are you being?” Meaning, what are you feeling, thinking, seeing, being about at the moment. To love a women we must provide at every level – basic needs all the way to providing for them mentally, emotionally and spiritually, if not their hearts will die. Be a man, provide for your women.

4. Integrity – A true man of God is a man of his word. Too many men in our culture break promises, play with women’s hearts, date girls as if it was a game, and have no respect for women at all. This is disgusting. In old times, when a man said “You have my word!” that word was bond, it was as if an actual contract had been written, because your word was your reputation. How many men do we know today who say one thing, but do another? Men who do not keep their word, their promise or follow through with their verbal commitments. In our culture we don’t take words seriously, but in God’s world words are everything. Blessings and curses come out of the same mouth. What comes out of our mouths determines what is truly in our hearts.

What a woman wants is a man of integrity. Someone who says what he does and does what he says. Someone they can trust at their word. So as a man you must come through. Words means nothing if they are not backed up with action. Don’t say sorry unless you mean it. Don’t say sorry unless you are able to back up your apologies with doing the right thing. Integrity is doing what is right, whether people are watching or not. Integrity is what you do when no one is looking. Does your woman trust you completely? If not, it is a question of integrity. Don’t tell a women you love her unless your love shows, words carry weight. They either carry false weight or real weight, a woman knows when a man means what he says.

So live by your words, live by action, be a living proof of your values, convictions and commitments. Don’t get involved in a relationship unless you are sure this what you want and what God is leading you both to do. I’ve had my share of mistakes in the past, where I got into a relationship without thinking about the consequences, protecting my sisters heart and the fear of the Lord from the get go, I’ve had to make amends and face the results of my sin and foolishness. Trust me brothers, don’t do what I’ve done in the past, don’t play games, don’t feed your fleshly desires, rather seek God, seek the best interest of the one you are pursuing, be honest, forthright from the start about your commitment and your vision for the relationship and stick to your word. Be a man of integrity.

If you pursue a women, it should be with the intentions of marriage. If not, stop playing yourself and her. It’s not about finding the right woman, it’s about being the right man. That starts with first knowing God in order to know yourself, then you will know how to love and respect a woman.

5) Courage - You are not a man until you climb the great wall of China! This is what it says at the actual great wall. Well, I have climbed the Great Wall of China so I guess I must be more of a man than others, just kidding. What is the greater underlying message here? It is a message of courage. It is a message of adventure. A man of God is a man of courage, a man of adventure, a man who is willing to take risks and do the impossible. Men were born to live a life of great adventure. Men were created to fight battles. Men were created to rescue beauties. Men were created to live.

Sadly, most men are not living. Most men are cowards, fearful and afraid of failure. Imprisoned by their own thinking and what others think about them. Many men are just boys waiting for their mother’s approval, or the approval of others in society. Most men I know are people pleasers, not God pleasers. They are more afraid of how others may reject them or not accept them if they choose to take the road less traveled.

All men die, few men truly live.

Which Is You??? 

MANHOOD and CHRIST-LIKENESS are synonymous ... remember that..

Yours truly,

Amos Ignatius Susau